Sometimes we feel a strange feeling, as if a part of ourselves was trying to make us doubt our choices. This feeling manifests itself in different ways: fear, intimidation, apprehension, fear of not being able to do something, desire to give up...
This feeling may be very clever and, sometimes, it convinces us until we give up. If we listen to this feeling that we can feel deep inside, we move away from the path that is ours and we move away from the person we really are...
But when we feel it, there is no need to panic or give in to the easiest option; we need to focus on what really makes sense to us! I still feel this feeling in me sometimes, which tries to make me doubt, to frighten me, and sometimes I end up asking myself questions, as if I was questioning my choices...
When this feeling comes back to haunt me, I take a piece of paper or a notebook, like tonight, and I write. I write to get out this feeling, to free myself from its grip... I don't wait until tomorrow, thinking it will leave during the night, I write now even if it's 10pm!
... Because I know that if I don't do it now, that feeling will still be there tomorrow and will prevent me from enjoying this new day. So I write, while mentally repeating to myself that everything will be fine, that my choices are right because they reflect who I am and what I really want...
These choices are the physical, concrete manifestations of the answers I felt in me,
And I know that these answers are signs sent by the Universe
To guide me on the path that is mine...
So, now, what I have to do is to regain my self-confidence, to listen to these answers that vibrate deep inside me to keep this feeling away and continue to move forward with serenity and in harmony with myself.
"Finding this balance to move forward on
The Way of Life, like a tightrope walker
Who progresses step by step above the void..."
(Chloe Barthez, 2019)
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