I have read a thousand novels in my life. A thousand stories to feel what characters can feel, to live what they can live. I have always been fascinated by novels because everything seems easier. To live my life as a fictional character was one of my craziest dreams... But then, I realise that I have to live my own life, I have to feel my own emotions if I want to become a writer.
All my life, until now, was a sort of fairytale, without any difficulties. I was used to staying in a protected bubble to avoid any problems. I saw all those happy people, I saw love, tenderness, but I thought that I didn't deserve the same kind of life.
To be honest, I was not ready to open my heart to Love...
That is the reason I love books so much; they allow me to dream, to imagine another life full of love and, finally, different from mine. It was easier, for me, to live my life this way. I am not feeling regrets today because it was my choice... But there is a particular sensation that I am feeling today: bravery. If I have chosen to leave my country, to start a new life, it is because I would like to feel bold, confident, to prove myself I can live my life on my own and do great things. I was used to live through my characters' lives but today I need to live as my own character, as I wrote my own story!
That is the only way to wake up the writer inside me: I need to feel myself alive...
I need to be inspired!
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